and surprising everyone, a compromise has been reached

Friday, December 29, 2006 No comments
well i wasn't haven't the best day on wednesday now was i? the headache got worse and lasted well into yesterday. but the idea of staying in here with a pissed off old woman wasn't appealing. i figured most of the rush of gift card shoppers would be gone so i ventured out to the mall. you heard that right ladies and gents. i shut off my normally highly adverse to shopping brain and went exploring. i stopped at two shoe stores and then went wandering off to build-a-bear. i love them, the most random toy--a child's teddy bear--becomes an otherworldly shopping experience. you have dozens of animals to choose from. you can get them stuffed to any desirable softness. you make a wish on the heart that is placed into your teddy and then you dress and name them and get them registered so that if the bear gets lost then it can be returned. here is what i started with...



and i got him nice and stuffed and then dressed him in this...



and of course he needed shoes so i put these on...



and then i had to think of a name. for a minute i was stumped, after all i have a large chocolate bear named Daddy Bear already. then it dawned on me. he was my little soldier bear so why not Roaming Soldier and voila my teddy has been created. so i leave my first just for fun store happy. i go back to payless and grab my sneaker. but in the middle of this my mother has set up camp in the car. she didn't buy anything just grabbed a catalog and sat in the freaking car lol. so i go to best buy and get my new digital camera to take pictures of my present from cyberdiva and my lovely new bear and some nice kinky things for RS but then i had to get food from PF Chang's--had a gift card and then went to wally world for the last time this year (i hope and pray dearly) and mommy got her nails done. somewhere in the middle of the last two stops she quit acting like a five year old and at least agreed to try to behave.

when i got home and looked at the net i found that best buy had a better camera than the one i bought for about 15 bucks more if i ordered online and then picked it up and one slightly better than my purchase for the same price as what i picked up. i headed back that way of course as i am lazy and have only a few stops i plan on making between now and going back to work. well i returned my 5.0 megapixel and got a 7.1 megapixel for the grand total difference of 14 bucks and because i was not shelling out 143 and then getting cash back i asked if they would honor the online price and yippee for me they did. save this asshole trying to run me off the road because they refused to get out of the lane that was being shut down until the last minute yesterday was pretty damn good. now if i can just get that build a bear wish to come true i'll be a happy girl.

if you want to go to a build a bear or just order one click http://www.buildabear.com to find out the best option for you.

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i have a headache

Wednesday, December 27, 2006 No comments
and it's one that i should have known was coming as soon as i grabbed the old woman that gave birth to me at the airport. it started with how tired she was after flying--ignored it. it continued with a twenty minute conversation about what it was she wanted to eat full of long pauses and seemingly little thought on her part--got irritated but let it go. it carried on with complaints about why my dissertation chair was so close to me in one of the pictures while we were walking down the center aisle to our seats--stared at her and shook my head but ignored it. the rest of the evening wasn't that bad and really we joked around for a bit and let it go. today though, praise the good Lord above i tried, she came in midday to ask why i wasn't up and dressed because she wanted to go somewhere. i never said we were going anywhere. then tonight after i put dinner in the oven she came back to visit me and ask me when EXACTLY we were moving out of here because she couldn't take a few more weeks of children making a minor amount of noise above her head. now let me say that i don't know what it is like for my mother. she's in her mid fifties and is depending on her children to help her live her life. she can't drive, she can't remember things from moment to moment and her own mother is losing her grasp on reality. logically i know those things must suck. emotionally i want her to be happy and to be like she was but then again i remember she's not all that different than before the surgery. she's never been the most accommodating person. if she doesn't get what she wants she has cut people off and never spoken to them again all the while blaming it on them for some insignificant thing she must have done to not be "good enough" for them. she enjoyed my brother's place because it was "so quiet" compared to here. i asked her then if she wanted to stay longer because i knew i wouldn't be ready to move the minute she got back. i was actually trying to be polite and allow her to pick the place as well but yeah that's not good enough either. part of me is prone to say fuck it, if she leaves i can find a two bedroom place closer to my job and just wait for Roaming Soldier and Littlest Soldier and i to reunite and we can live wherever we want without worrying about her. but we all know that even if she wasn't here i'd worry about her. she's my mother, i'm supposed to worry about her and in her selfishness right now she's headed to a place that will not make sure she is okay and will bleed her dry financially. i called my brother and let him know what she's doing and now i'm blogging. i took a nice big painkiller which is starting to kick in but that won't get rid of the headache. what exactly am i supposed to do with this woman? she acts like a small child but she has more financial resources. i'm tired and she hasn't even been home a day yet. if she packs and leaves will i really be all that upset? i'm not sure now lol. i wish He was here to help me figure this out or spank me. either way it would be better than this crap. gotta go check on dinner, see ya

red

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awww sugar yeah honey honey

Monday, December 25, 2006 No comments

The best of this weeks blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasmer participants. Want in Sugasm #61? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the linklist within a week and you're all set.

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A night at the opera (http://junohenry.wordpress.com)

"There were limits to what could be done where there was any discernible level of visibility. But I was familiar with these limits and had enjoyed them before."

In Praise of Older Men (http://perverselypoly.blogspot.com)

"I would expect her to have at least one lad on the side, and perhaps more."

A Nawty Story: Cookies and Cream (http://anawtymouz.blogspot.com)

"I pull my hand away from her pussy and sniff her fragrances on my fingers."

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Raunchy Wrapping Paper (http://sugarbank.com)

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Christmas for the lonely wanker (http://wanklog.blogspot.com)

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The Desk (http://nocloudnine.blogspot.com)
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Threesome (http://deliciously-naughty.typepad.com)

BDSM and Fetish

First steps in sensory deprivation (http://www.bondage-guide.net)
Leaving your mark (http://dirtylittlecockslut.blogspot.com)
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Sex and Politics

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Sex Work

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Apple gets the pip with iBuzz (http://sextoysinsider.com)
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merry christmas

okay this post probably won't be that long. i finished my desserts for tomorrow. an amaretto white chocolate pecan pie and muffins i made from my cream cheese poundcake batter. it ended up making twelve largish muffins and only cooked for an hour. i can remember that for small parties in case i need to frost a few or put something special in certain cups for different folks. my domestic side is coming out lol. i've been cleaning up and getting rid of the stuff i don't need. i also finally started using the shredder i bought many moons ago to get rid of important documents as safely as possible.

my brother and sister in law have crossed into the age bracket that folks automatically assume it's okay to start asking you when are you going to have kids totally neglecting the fact that they don't have to take care of the crumbsnatchers if you are nice enough to oblige them by having some before the next major family gathering. i gave them my old lines--if you keep them till they are potty trained i will happily assist you with that OR i'm entirely too selfish to share my sleep with another human right now--and told them to give folks cookies and ask them to sit down. other than that it's a good day around this way. i haven't talked to Roaming Soldier but i know He is safe and i know that He loves me. what else could a girl want? okay hug your families, i'll bother ya after my food induced coma wears off.

oh and if you have any desire to know my favorite christmas song click below. love ya
red



forgot to mention, this was my 400th post lol

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waving goodbye to 2006

Saturday, December 23, 2006 No comments
well it's not quite Christmas yet but it's time for the annual reevaluation of life, love and all that is wonderful and all the crap that transpired this year. this will be like all the other evaluation posts i do--long winded and full of videos or music. this year was one for the record books as far as my life is concerned. i'm a few days shy of when my mother moved in and made me fall off the map with friends and family. she hadn't put a strain on my "relationship" with Emperor but then again she didn't have to. he was off exploring other avenues and i just hadn't quite picked up on that yet. i hear music that is perfectly fitting a situation more often than not well after the situation has passed. four songs come to mind now as i think of Emp and nope not one of them is a prince song lol. the first is bitter by chante moore--really just because of the line about i hate your dog, i won't elaborate beyond that lol. the next is hate me today by blue october--knowing the real meaning behind the words doesn't make me appreciate it any less than i did before. walk away by kelly clarkson because i mean really if you don't know what you want how can i help you? and finally justin timberlake's what goes around comes around. the link to hear it is below this section. it's a long song because a break down is included at the end of the song but really it's my favorite part of the song. the burning ache in my chest went away quickly thank God but he was part of the first two months of 06 for me and i was disappointed things happened they did.



but if i thought that would be the most eventful part of my year i was wrong. there was much more fighting to do with mom than i could imagine. trying to have a roommate after not sharing space with anyone from the age of 18 was a bit of an adjustment. she's a lovely woman and i know she means well but lord every now and then i wish i could just have some peace and quiet--like now--to get my thoughts together and not have to take care of anyone but me. so for mom a nod to her ringtone and marvin gaye.



she did derail my energy and motivation a bit from time to time which pissed off both myself and my dissertation chair to a certain degree. i hate not finishing things and it puts me in a bad mood to not get things done on my schedule. i had friends postpone about three graduation trips because of my own inability to get stuff taken care of when i should have. but as they say there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. "breaking up" with Emperor spurred a lot of work to get done and then just my own stubborness to get the monkey off my back caused me to stop screwing around and get things taken care of. thank heavens for that because now my life is my own again. this year, much like my time in undergrad showed me i had the balls to do whatever i needed. enjoy a bit of christina and join me in fighting lol.



work was work and it's one of those things that made me glad i had supportive people around me but reminded me about how different really i am from those folks around me. not just in the sense that i'm the only black woman on staff or i'm a bit younger than most of them. it's just a mindset thing--beyond needing to get spanked lol--that doesn't make me want to settle down here and set up shop. here's a video for you.



the biggest change this year was realization that it was time to get my life back into balance. i have been working at my job, on my dissertation, taking care of my mother and doing all that while holding my love life at bay. i think i lept at Emperor so gladly last year because it was my first foray back into having something that was good for me. regardless of how it turned out the cracks that were present were about there still not being enough of a balance. our needs never matched up enough for that relationship to come to any fruition. i had four walls to sleep in, a few dozen walls to work in but nothing to make my life a full experience for me.



as soon as my brain processed what i needed and what it was that i really wanted i was blessed with the most wonderful Man i have had the pleasure of knowing. i really can't muster up the words correctly so i am going to ask that you listen to tamia.



now when it comes to Roaming Soldier i was not expecting Him or His presence in my life this year. i periodically think i must be dreaming because after a few decades of dating and coming up with squat for it you start to get a little jaded about the whole experience. i mean i still had friends that were were inspiring me to keep hope alive but i wasn't looking very hard at that point. even though He's away and really i don't know when He'll be able to climb into bed with me and start working through the smutty collection with me He has been a total and complete Godsend that i am thankful for each night. press play and enjoy babyface.



the other thing that happened this year was me getting refocused on my responsibility to the rest of the world lol. nope i can't save it and nope i can't fix it for everyone around but i can do my part here and there. i will get back into my volunteer work and continue my sponsorship of my kid in the Phillipines. until they let me take over the world it's the least i could do.



i'm finally turning into that woman i wanted to be when i was itty bitty. i'm happy with my life and my love and my plans for the immediate future. there's no more confusion about why i'm not where i want to be. i know now if i'm not what i want to be it's mostly on me. i can be whomever i want and do whatever i want. i can be the soccer mom if the kids want to do that and still come home, put the corset on over the white t-shirt and and shake my ass in front of Him after we get the kids to bed. i'm a big girl like that lol.



okay i'm done looking back over the year. the rest of the songs will be random sappy happy songs because that's the place i'm in this year. i hope the year was good to all of you but if it wasn't that you have a much more blessed 2007. starting off the hit parade with beautiful loved and blessed.




















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red's randomness report

Friday, December 22, 2006 1 comment
wow can't believe it's been this long since i updated. i remember typing something at the airport but maybe it got lost in cyberspace. so what's new? our time off of work starts today and we don't go back till after the 1st of the year. YIPPEE! i am getting caught up on all of my paperwork there and will be done with it the first week we are back. getting used to be calling dr. red but i'm sure that will take some more time. actually thinking about getting personalized plates but i want to talk to Roaming Soldier about that first. i'm sure He'll approve but i still want to check in.

i've been tired lately. they gave me something to help with my ankle but one of the side effects is apparently me getting very sleepy very early. not that it's a bad thing but y'all know i can stay up indefinitely sometimes. other than that i've been staring at my boobs since i got home. they seem bigger than i remember them being but i can't prove that. it's probably just the shelf bra that i'm wearing. i got to talk to Roaming Soldier by the way. it was tuesday night at this point. He was very tired but He was also very flirty. helped to take out a kitty that evening. i miss Him y'all. i've been horny as a teenager sailor on shore leave. and i want Him home to reap the benefits of all that energy. i've had a few stories rushing around in my brain for Him too that i am going to work on now that i'm on "vacation" and of course that means i'll share them with you too.

say a prayer for all those soliders, like my Daddy, that will not be home with their families this holiday season. remember them and hug your loved ones tighter before you let them out of your sight. love ya all but it's time for bed.

red

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and i love Him

Sunday, December 17, 2006 No comments
okay this post will be short more than likely. i should so be sleeping but i made sure i did all the major things i needed to do for today (sunday) yesterday before i got back here. short of the wallets printing a bit weird at walgreens i'm good. well i don't have exactly what i wanted for my girlfriend that's in town but other than that i'm having a grand old time away from my place and from the responsibilities of my grown up life. but and this is a minor but in the grand scheme of things. because i crashed early last night i missed Roaming Soldier which would have been the highlight of the early morning hours of my birthday but it would have mean i didn't get the lovely email that greeted me instead. it inspired me to go searching the new song service i use to post stuff on the blog for the right song. i hope this works because the first song i was thinking of is nowhere to be found. i mean who could pass up reading these words from the Man they love:

"Today, I sit here and could never imagine My life without you in it. ...My big little girl, I love you and that will never change. you make Me smile through the tears, laugh through the pain, hope through all the sorrow."

believe me i wrote something equally sappy back. okay it's bedtime now.


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the graduate has landed

Friday, December 15, 2006 1 comment
it's ten o'clock. do you know where your resident submissive is hiding out? of course you don't because i never tell y'all that kind of stuff lol. i'm in my hotel room after a strange day. i woke up EARLY. i never do that when i am flying out. i got up and showered---revisit that never thing. i sealed up Daddy Bear and Elle (pronounced el-ee) for the trip---okay that's standard. i grabbed all the stuff i needed and loaded up the car. i stopped the paper, emptied the trash and then put a box of presents in the car to mail to the family. umm i can have productive moments but that was just ridiculous. i got the packages off, checked my luggage and got through security ninety minutes before the flight. again that's just not like me but when i finally started feeling like enough is enough i went for food only to find that my flight was going to be delayed until noon if i was lucky. well before i got to enjoy the food i bought i got summoned over to the gate lol and got booked onto a flight through st. louis and avoided the chicago drama altogether. i ended up getting here an hour ahead of time and got my car--no suv upgrade this time lol--but it's a step up from my car--same make just different model you know what i mean--and it was so cute. my hotel bed is lovely. the wireless connection is iffy but i'm glad to be connected at all because i want to be online just in case Roaming Soldier can log on.

there's a bridal party in the hotel this weekend. now please don't get offended by this because i love everyone really i do lol but there is nothing more humorous--well small children might be funnier--than a group of semi drunk, tired, chain smoking white folks. the men are flirty, the women just a little louder than normal and the entire group will share way too much information with perfect strangers. not that i would crash a wedding or reception but they gave me all the information i would need in case i was just that bored. i wish the bride and groom good luck even though they'll never see this lol because tomorrow is my birthday and you have to be wonderfully blessed if you do anything on the day i graced the world lol. my girlfriend will be here tomorrow and we are going to hang out and giggle before the big festivities. okay i think i've rambled on enough. gotta get over this eastern standard time thing.

see ya
red

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what did you eat before bed?

Wednesday, December 13, 2006 1 comment
the last few nights have been interesting, to say the least, in the mind of red. as i've gotten closer and closer to graduation (and my birthday yippee!) my brain has ventured further and further off my typical stressful dreams momentarily interuppted by strange events or kinky thoughts about Roaming Soldier. the last two nights to be precise have started off pretty normal only to turn into these intensely steamy sexual situations with literally no prompting. i've been super tired the last few nights so i've even managed to fall asleep early and it hasn't helped a bit in staving off the damn near pornographic images (even though last night had porn stars in it) from flooding my brain. normally when i have weird dreams people ask what i had to eat before i went to bed. well monday i had an orgasm and last night i had some ice cream but that's it. now where was i? okay so smutty dreams that don't start off that way. and there's no cheesy porno type lead in. i'm just minding my business and then boom naked and enjoying myself.

monday night i dreamt about being on a talk show with my girlfriends from undergrad. doesn't start off too bad. one is pregnant so she's at home getting ready to have her kid. the other three of us are sitting around talking about relationships, kids and sex potentially but nothing too intense. i'm getting bored, but i do that because i periodically have the shortest attention span known to man, and am very glad when someone finally yells cut and lets us leave for the day. i kiss them goodbye and hop in my car to head home. the driver pulls off and this is where it gets blurry. either i'm having sex with Roaming Soldier in the back of the limo while people are watching us or someone that RS knows is having sex with me while He watches and critiques the performance. now that first one is off in far far away land as far as potential to happen is concerned. that second one ROFLMAO i would absolutely stunned if RS was ever that willing to share His little girl. okay so yeah i wake up and shake my head after that and wonder what exactly brought that on.

last night i was in my house. nice huge house with a master bedroom that was so luscious i can see never wanting to leave it. the bathroom, only a girl who enjoys being in nice hot showers or long warm soaks could appreciate fully, was stunning and i found myself playing around in there longer than i anticipated. my husband, at least i am thinking it's Roaming Soldier but this person doesn't fit the height requirement lol, walks up behind me and starts hugging me at first. before i know it He's groping whatever He can get His hands on and then we're messing around on the floor before i go after my bottle. i'm enjoying it, He's DEFINITELY enjoying it and so for a moment we don't notice the bathroom door has opened and His friend is trying to pull me towards him and shove himself down my throat. i looked over at RS, who at this point is starting to look like Brian Pumper for some damn reason, and He still has His eyes closed i guess thinking i was going to get something to toy with Him with. the friend had been watching us and was close to getting off which is apparently why he wanted my mouth. before he could get it across my lips good RS got up and yanked him out of the bathroom and shut and locked the door. the friend is complaining that he was almost done and RS basically tells him that if he doesn't get away from the door in the next five seconds that He would be forced to hurt him. the interruption now over, i crawled over to Him and started sucking on my bottle again before i woke up--again shaking my head. anyone got any ideas what that's all about besides me being horny and wanting Him home?

all right moving on. i swear i hear and see the strangest things sometimes. now i don't hate kanye west but i would have to think twice about saving him if it meant he would keep putting out badly named records (i mean shouldn't you register late for classes BEFORE you drop out of college?). so imagine the giggle on my face as i read the article linked here (please click on the word here in bold to read the article). kanye done pissed off evel knievel and yes i meant to type it just like that lol. oh the giggles the giggles i tell you.

last night i watch the unit for a change instead of criminal intent. don't get me wrong i love CI but i hate it when bobby's not on there and he hasn't been on for a few weeks now. i know they brought back these other characters to give bobby a break but damn it i want bobby lol. okay moving on. it was a good storyline last night for both of the subplots. i enjoyed them both and i love looking at Jonas Blane and i guess it gave my Molly moments a boost. the whole black ops storyline was good too and i'm thinking our hapless pilot will be back on another episode.


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lol a present for y'all

Tuesday, December 12, 2006 No comments
i'm okay, just nothing on my mind except Roaming Soldier so i won't belabor that with y'all right now. enjoy the clip. the subtitles usually annoy me but given the accent she was working with they will be helpful for those of you that don't speak english as a native language and heck some of you that do lol.


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i love this song and i miss Him

Saturday, December 09, 2006 No comments
i don't have a lot to say tonight. it was a long day, productive but long. still no sign of the box and no sign of the letters He sent. i did get another letter calling me dr. velvet which made me scratch my head again. it's just random and it will take some getting used to. don't get me wrong i'm glad to be done but it's a little anti-climatic. it's been a huge focus and weight on my shoulders for five years and now in eight days i'll be in a fluffy hat and velvety sleeved robe waiting for my uber long hood to be put around my neck and draped down my back. ok that was so off tangent it is out of control. but really nothing much is going on red velvet land. i really just want to go to sleep and wake up with Him but since that won't be happening i'll just go back to vegging out until i put mom on a plane tomorrow.

love ya all
red


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i'm just tired

Thursday, December 07, 2006 No comments
the end of the post has lyrics to a song that has been stuck in my brain for the last 90 minutes or so. if you have seen blazing saddles then you will totally get the whole sound of it. if you haven't seen it, well damn it go see it. it's been a busy month already and plenty left to do. i'm leaving work early tomorrow to get my hair done but that little excursion aside i'm supposed to go to a work party after that, have sorority meeting and gathering on saturday and mom is leaving on sunday. now i will likely be riding the big toy after she leaves but until then i'm on a schedule not of my own choosing. then the damn post office has lost the box i was sending to Roaming Soldier. it took me two weeks to even get them to take the damn claim and then after someone finally called me back they were like ohhh we can't really look for it until a month has passed. why the fuck would i want the box back then? pardon my language but that is just foolishness. so i am already putting a new box together for Him and will send it out probably on Monday. but the mail He has been sending me isn't getting here either. i could go on this long tangent about how someone at the post office hates me but that would just take more energy than i'm willing to expend. it just makes me very sad and makes me miss Him more. okay i'm gonna stop now before i get more mopey than i am right now.


Here I stand, the goddess of Desire,
set men on fire,
I have this power,
morning noon and night it's drink and dancing,
some quick romancing,
and then a quick shower,
stage door johnnies always surround me,
they always hound me,
with one request,
who can satisfy their lustful habits,
I'm not a rabbit!
I need some rest!

I'm tired,
sick and tired of love,
I've had my fill of love,
from below and above,
tired,
tired of being admired,
tired of love uninspired,
let's face it,
I'm tired!

I've been with 1000's of men,
again and again,
they promise the moon,
they always coming and going,
going and coming,
and always too soon!
Right girls?

I'm tired,
tired of playing the game,
ain't it a crying shame?
I'm so tired,
God dammit I'm tired!

Hello cowboy, what's your name?
Tex 'mam
Tex 'mam ? Tell me Tex'mam, are you in show business?
No
We'll then why don't you get your freaking feet off here
La ha
Ah ha he hu...
Hello handsome, is that a 10 gallon hat? Or are you just enjoying the show?
Ah ha ah...
Oh miss lilly, oh my laby, oh my pussy cat, put it there baby, put it... ohhhhh

I'm tired,
tired of playing the game,
ain't it a crying shame,
I'm so tired

[soldiers:]
she's tired
-she's tired
sick and tired of love
-give her a break
she's had her fill of love
-she's not a snake
from bellow and above
-can't you see she's sick?
tired
-she's bushed
tired of being admired
-let her alone
tired of love uninspired
-get off the phone
she's tired
-don't you know she's pooped?

I've been with 1000's of men,
again and again,
they sing the same toon,
the start with Byron and Shelly,
and jump on your belly,
and bust your ballon!
aye!
tired,
tired of playing the game,
ain't it a freakin shame,
I'm so...
let's face it,
everything below the waste is kapput!

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where or where did red velvet go

Sunday, December 03, 2006 2 comments
i swear i didn't mean to vanish. between being horny and the snow and annoyance at my office i was distracted. i killed more kittens lately than i have in quite a while and there was still so much work to freaking do that really i wanted to throw a tantrum and turn into the next Cyndi Sheehan. "bring back my Dom, bring back my Dom!" but i figured that would probably end up getting Him in unneccessary trouble so i just took out another kitten. the sleet and rain came down on thursday before turning into snow and making sure i didn't have to go to work on friday. but i still had to drive out of town and surprisingly most of the highway was clear in my immediate area and then outside of the city it was great. i spent the last two nights there and whenever i thought about blogging i went "eh no" and decided not to. i was in a meeting for about twelve hours yesterday which was fine all in all. it was a good meeting and i left being rejuvenated but entirely too tired to drive home. hotel bed was good again. but the best part of being gone was just getting some rest and some quiet. okay that wasn't the best thing. the best thing was an unexpected--aren't they all unexpected at this point?--and too short conversation with Roaming Soldier. it was perhaps the last time that i was incredibly horny and able to talk to Him and i have to blame the song that you can click below. i have this oral fixation that is acting up so badly right now. when i heard the end of this song it just made things worse and i told Him about it. bad little girl i know but He was happy that my mind was spinning in that direction and still focused on Him. so yeah the kitten that died today died because i was thinking about my bottle and Him and all the different ways that could make Him very happy. anyway go enjoy the music and Daddy if You are able to click the link just remember what i said the other night. just need You home and we are gonna have so much fun.


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nights like this i wish....

Wednesday, November 29, 2006 No comments
......that raindrops would fall. okay i have mentioned here before that i have ombrophilia which is getting turned on from rain or being rained upon. check out the dictionary of unusual sexual terms for more fetishes and interesting words. apparently i didn't scroll all the way down the page because pluviophilia means the same thing. for some reason i like ombrophiliac more than pluviophiliac. could just because i have seen the term longer. i'm sure you are wondering about all the extra disclosure lol but it's raining something awful here and will be doing a mix of rain and snow for the next 24 hours at least. i love the sound, so wet, so soothing, very gentle when there is no thunder or lightening. but it makes me so dang on horny it's bordering on unbearable. i miss Roaming Soldier enough when it's just been a few days since we spoke but on days like today i need to be with Him very badly. there will be new smut soon. i just need to eat and calm down a bit. okay darlings i'll bother you later.

red

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give till it hurts

Tuesday, November 28, 2006 No comments
the season usually makes me want to do more volunteer work or give more money out than i normally do to charities. for the last year or so i've been sponsoring a little boy from the phillipines through Children's International. it's a good organization and lets me and him keep in as much contact as we like. i sent him a not yesterday along with some extra funds for the christmas season. in the grand scheme of things not a massive amount of money but it will help him out i hope. beyond that (if you can spare it please look into sponsoring a kid or getting involved with big brothers big sisters or something that helps you influence a child's life in a positive fashion) it's time for the angel tree and because December 1st is World AIDS Day, please consider lighting a candle at the Light to Unite website and/or give a donation to the National AIDS fund. they hoped to get 100K candles lit before Friday and were able to surpass that but let's keep the candles firing if we can.

okay i'm exhausted from taking mommy shopping. see y'all later.

red

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cha cha channnnnnnnnges

Saturday, November 25, 2006 2 comments
okay not really massive ones. i spent about twenty minutes earlier today putting more labels on different posts. i haven't decided if i'm going to try to put a category listing up yet or not but if there's a theme you like (umm cookie peddling or life is good for example) just click on it and it will take you to a different page with all of the posts that have been similarly labeled. some have a bunch, some not so many but i'm not nearly half through with them---that will take a while there are 385 posts including this one---so bare with me and i'll get it taken care of as soon as i feel like killing some more time.

the other new thing i did today that you may or may not have noticed is the favicon next to my url in the address bar. okay so i was feeling jealous of all the nice pages that had it up there so i spent some time last night trying to figure it out. the first page i went to was absolutely the most helpful ever. one page led to a program that if i was remotely patient i could have learned how to work. ummm but we all know that not to be the case. that led me to THIS page that just did it for me. it was like a five minute procedure but then i remembered i'm on blogger and don't use a FTP client on a regular basis so i couldn't upload it until i figured that part out. did that after talking to a silly friend today and voila, i got a little red in your url windows.

beyond that nothing major is going on. i booked my flight back to school for graduation and ordered announcements to send out lol. they will likely get there around the same time i get to my hotel but it's an announcement not an invitation really so big whoop. they are red--big shock there lol--and i love em. other than that i order me a nice big collection of shiny new porn. i likea the porn from time to time. it helps take the kitties out with reckless abandon when my own imagination has been tapped out. okay back to watching silly movies now. have a good night.

red

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brain meltdown lol

Friday, November 24, 2006 1 comment


You are Temperance


Time. Ages. Transformation. Involuntary change


Temperance is another card of aspiration, but also of much change. It often
represents complex situations. Positively, you can harmonize contrary
forces.


Temperance is, on a surface level, about "tempering." The original pouring from cup to cup might have been about cutting wine with water. So this is a card about moderation. There is, however, another angle to the card, that of merging seemingly impossible opposites. Sagittarius, the centaur, merges beast and man into a unique creature. And then there is the bow and arrow, one moving, one stationary, working together to point the way. Temperance may be, at first glance, a warning for you to "temper" your behavior, to cut your wine with water. But it may also be a reminder to that seemingly irreconcilable opposites may not be irreconcilable at all. Belief that fiery red and watery blue cannot be merged may be the only thing standing in the way of blending the two. Change the belief, measure out each with care, and you can create otherworldly violet.


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You aren't sure where you came from. Perhaps your sire did an embrace and run. Or maybe your sire was an outcast himself. Either way, your powers are unique and really don't belong to any clan...or maybe a little from each. Because of these circumstances, you aren't really sure where you belong. You tend to wander and do a bit of soul searching in your eternal life. Maybe some day...you have a while after all.

What Vampire Clan Do You Belong To?



You Are a Fun Flirt
You just can't help yourself... you flirt with everyone you know.
Guys, girls, crushes, and friends. They're all victims to your charm.
You're into silly innuendos, sexy jokes, and playful touches.
You are a huge flirt, yet you never make anyone (too) uncomfortable!


Your Emoticon Is Laughing

You've got a wicked sense of humor. You're everyone's favorite IM buddy... at least today!


You've Changed 72% in 10 Years

Compared to who you were ten years ago, you've changed a great deal.
In fact, you're probably in a completely different phase of your life - and very happy about it!


Your Wrath Quotient: 40%

Sometimes you get really angry, but nothing out of the norm.
While you may wish someone harm, it's pretty unlikely that you'd actually do anything about it.


Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Thinking

You are:

Objective, honest, and credible
Intellectually curious, with many diverse interests
More inclined toward ideas than people
Fiercely independent and unapologetically unconventional


Your Movie Buff Quotient: 74%

You are a total movie buff. Classics, blockbusters, indie favorites... you've seen most of them.
Your friends know to come to you whenever they need a few good DVD rental suggestions.



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happy thanksgiving boys and girls

Thursday, November 23, 2006 No comments
well i couldn't rightly name this post happy thanksgiving considering there was one with the same title a year ago. things are a bit different from then though huh? the family is still good. my brother has to work tonight but his wife has fed him and doted on him already. thanks to one of my sorority sisters i was up and showered when i wanted to be and started cooking immediately. the duck is SCRUMPTIOUS. i should have taken a picture of it because it was just the right color and the skin crackled just the way i like it. my mother and i operated in the kitchen pretty well together today. i made a pecan pie while the duck was cooking. it's a little darker than i wanted but perfectly set. mom made her dressing and kept the dishes clean. add a side of corn and some lovely crossaint thingies from pillsbury and it was dinner time. i didn't eat though. had to laugh at mom overfill and then spill her food. and then i made a red velvet cake from scratch, of course lol, while we watched the proud family movie. i ate after i made the cream cheese frosting for the cake and negotiated how the nuts would be added to it lol. dinner tasted as good as it looked and now that the cakes are cooled i'm going to frost them in a bit.

i sure did get sidetracked with the food huh? i sent Roaming Soldier a why i'm thankful email before i fell asleep last night. then i sent Him some pics that coffee's latest

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Daddy tucked me in last night

Monday, November 20, 2006 3 comments
okay so we all know it wasn't a literal tucking in otherwise i wouldn't even be online right now. i'd be resting my head in His lap and enjoying my bottle while i laughed at people on tv---okay so i probably wouldn't be laughing right now either and i'm 99.9 percent sure my eyes wouldn't be open either. ummm bottle .....where was i? yeah Daddy tucked me in last night. Roaming Soldier is of course technology challenged at the moment since He's in the field so much and when He's back at camp He really needs to rest before the next trek back out. last night He caught me after a trek out for me lol. i had a nearly five hour meeting that bookended by an hour long drive each way. i was curled up in the bed half naked by the time He said hello and for some reason that bit of information totally changed the conversation. instead of us keeping it somewhat clean it was as dirty as the army can allow given their whole family values kick--they are doing much of nothing to actually preserve families right now but they like to pretend that they are but that's time for another rant--and it was lovely.

somewhere in the middle of there He read the last post and just said that i was making Him horny but He had no way to ummmmm release that at the moment lol. we did discuss ways that i might be of assistance to relieving that pressure as soon as He got home. we started talking about my oral fixation flaring up and then He had to go to bed. of course at this point i was just a bit aroused and a kitten had to leave the earth shortly thereafter. i slept like a baby, His baby lol, after that and was upset i had to wake up this morning. i was thinking He was laying in bed with me and moving was so not an option. instead it was just Daddy Bear who is going to be sorely disappointed in not sleeping with half naked red when Roaming Soldier gets home. hee hee, He said He was a bit jealous of the bear for a minute. that was so sweet in a "wanna crawl under the table and give you head during dinner" kinda way. the sad part is, when He reads this i'll be under the table giving Him head and it will be totally my fault lol. i write myself into trouble all of the time lol.

anyhoo since i slept so well i sent out another box of goodies to Him and His unit. they will be full of sugar and He will be getting another stack of letters and a surprise just in case He's reading this. i think they will be teasing Him for a while about it but in a good--damn your woman is the bomb kinda way. of course He thinks that already and that is all that matters. obie kaybe i am done rambling now.

see ya
red

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back to the middle

Wednesday, November 15, 2006 No comments
yeah that's where i am right now. i'm back on an even keel all of a sudden. work is manageable, just got some paperwork to catch up on. my last requirement for my degree was finished this week so now it's just a matter of buying my ticket back for graduation and waiting on my tam to be delivered. YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH fluffy hat. i've talked to Roaming Soldier a few times since i've been back and both have been very aptly timed and silly flirty conversations. yeah i love Him clearly lol. my smut juices are flowing again so i'll be getting back to work on that stuff soon. and i'm busy with my extracurricular activities again. it's good being productive in things that i wanted to be a part of in the first place. the biggest thing right now is being able to relax without feeling guilty for not doing something else. that is an absolutely wonderful feeling. so yeah i'm dr. velvet but that's secondary to being just red and enjoying life again and being sily with my friends and giggling when i want to. i guess i don't have anything to say right now really. hope everyone is doing well.

red

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so you're a long long way from home

Tuesday, November 07, 2006 1 comment
well i guess i am but not for very long. i'll be headed back to the place i lay my head normally with the old woman that drives me nuts. i finished all but one project today but i will be graduating the day after my birthday YIPPEE YIPPEE YIPPEE. i'm getting used to people calling me Dr. Velvet cause it just sounds wrong lol but this is what i was working for all these years. and everyone is also getting used to Roaming Soldier. He's the first person i've talked about at any great length and claimed as a part of my life in the way that i am. i mentioned that W/we still had to make decisions about where the homestead will be and i nearly freaked everyone out. but they are all very excited for me so i'm going home with that smile on my face as well as the one the small people gave me.

the small people are one of my girlfriend's kids. they have entertained me greatly and gave me lots of presents i have to figure out how to pack up. nothing major but it was still all very cute. Dr. soldier is a work in progress. i miss my Daddy so much i swear but this is just part of the process apparently. maybe we'll step up the migration out of the desert now that the democrats have taken over congress. probably not but it's nice to dream about every now and then.

ok i'm gonna shuddup now
red

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heat wave

Monday, November 06, 2006 No comments
it was slightly miserable in the house that day. the kids were sluggish because they were tired from the heat and it was making them cranky. her mother was off visiting friends so they were at least saved from her complaining. the house should have been cool considering it was the middle of winter and the heat wasn't turned on but it was a freak warm spell moving through town that night. turning on the air wasn't logical in the brains of the adults roaming around just as sluggishly but in a moment, the attitudinal behavior of their kids would force them into it. they finished big bowls of ice cream and thankfully they crashed from the sugar high immediately. small bodies were placed into their beds and she followed Him up to their room. she stripped down to her tank bra and matching boy shorts before He had locked the door behind them. He smiled when He saw her sprawled over their bed and then got a truly inspired idea. He went down to the kitchen and grabbed the ice bucket and filled it with nice cold cubes before ascending the stairs again. His son scurried out of the room and asked Him to read a story so that he could fall back asleep. He left the ice next to their door and followed His middle child into his room. another night of The Bernstein Bears and the the boy was asleep. He adjusted the covers and went back into to claim some alone time with His wife.

the ice in the bucket had melted a little when He picked it up but He figured that would be okay too. she was still laying face down as He went over to sit next to her. she began to turn over but He forced her back down. He rubbed her shoulders a bit before He went to the nightstand and took out a blindfold. He lifted her up by her hair before slipping it into place and securing it around the back of her head. she purred a little and it made Him smile. her skin glistened as the ice touched it and He watched as her body reacted to the frosty sensation. she purred again and let Him manipulate her with the ice. it roamed over her arms and dripped off of her fingertips. He traced the outline of the tattoo on her shoulder and watched as she shivered. He caught a stray cube as it slid down her hip and pulled it over the length of her legs. He massaged the melting toy into her feet and felt her tremble a bit. He repeated the procedure on her other leg and thought her skin was perfectly lovely slightly wet. He moved the bucket off the bed and walked it over to the dresser. He pulled off His sweat pants before climbing on top of her in the bed. He'd love to tie her down and strip her naked but the kids would be sure to interrupt before He had gotten her properly strapped down. instead, He ripped off her boy shorts and pulled Himself out of His boxer briefs. He wasn't rock hard yet but He knew He would be shortly after she slipped Him deep inside her throat.

she wiggled beneath Him as He told her what she was to do. as she rolled over onto her back He freed her breasts and toyed with her nipples as she swallowed Him quickly. she lapped on her bottle, coaxing blood into the growing organ with each increase of pressure she placed on it. He was coated with her saliva as He pulled out of her mouth. she whimpered a bit before He rolled her over and pulled her ass up into the air. as He moved into position behind her, He exhaled deeply before shoving inside her slowly. each inch was wonderful for both of them but it was the only gentle moment they would share right then. as soon as His dick disappeared inside of her, they began to fuck each other. it wasn't romantic, it wasn't the stuff dreams are made of but it was visceral and worked off the sheen the water had left on her skin quickly. she begged Him to fuck her harder and He eagerly complied. He was so deeply engrossed in what He was doing that He didn't hear the headboard hitting the wall. He just felt her walls contracting around Him and urging Him to come inside of her. she bucked back into Him when He wasn't expecting it which made Him growl. she giggled and it set Him off. He started pounding her pussy mercilessly and felt one orgasm after another wash over her body and through her pussy. when her legs started to feel jelly like she came again but this time He joined her. pump after pump of His seed flowed into her hurriedly. they stayed locked together, partially dressed, waiting to cool off again. their heart rates returned to normal and they were nearly asleep when a tiny knock on the door woke her up. she pulled on her shorts and grabbed their youngest daughter and walked her back to bed. a few pages of Charlotte's Web had her snoring softly. the fan was blowing when she came back to their room.

"I couldn't take it baby. I wanted to snuggle with you but your skin was too hot after that. Come get in bed with Daddy sugar and let's go to bed." always a good girl she did what she was told but was happy the heatwave had inspired Him again to make her toes curl.

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woo i'm all tuckered out

Saturday, November 04, 2006 5 comments
why might you ask? well i'm sure most of you don't care lol but i'm going to share anyway. i came to do the last phase of my graduate work so that i could not look at my dissertation again or anything else lol. after going back and forth about the date and getting stuff ready for the presentation and just generally trying to get adjusted to this time zone i had my defense meeting last night. well it started yesterday afternoon and i left it about three hours later. the meeting went for the appropriate length of time. the rest of the time was spent just joking around as folks are apt to do after my meetings for some reason.

and the result? i am now doctor red velvet and my life is mine again. i need to do some very minor rewrites then after that it's copy time and binding time and then go look for my fluffy hat at the bookstore time. yeah fluffy hat, red wants a fluffy hat. in case you don't know what the fluffy hat looks like. here it is.



i don't have time to order the full velvet robe set special fitted for me but i can also get that done whenever i feel like it. i'm done and now i can play doctor with Roaming Soldier on a whole new level lol. i am really sleepy for some reason. i think i was on edge even though my mind was saying stay calm. oh well. let me snack some more and then get back to the editing process. i'm almost at the point that i can refocus on my smut production lol.

see ya
red

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red's grand adventure

Thursday, November 02, 2006 No comments
i flew out this morning and it started off oddly. i almost never catch a skycap to check my bag so i don't have to drag it from the parking lot but managed to do so today. that elation was short lived. as soon as i got through the unnecessarily long x ray line i was told that i had too much lotion in my carry on bag. it's lotion--clearly labeled as lotion, feel free to use some on those icky gloved hands of yours--so i had to put it into my other piece of carry on luggage and then have it checked which i wasn't sure was going to make the flight at that point. it did but i wouldn't know that till i landed. the flights were uneventful and as i passed through O'hare i was a mix of emotions. the city is really pretty when it's not covered in snow and was almost where i was calling home. thankfully i wasn't there long enough to wax nostalgic too long and as soon as i got settled onto my teeny tiny plane i quickly dosed off and started dreaming about Roaming Soldier. we got to speak briefly last night which was so wonderful i can't explain. calling Him Daddy for five minutes almost makes up for the week plus stretches when i just get to think about Him. if i wasn't so tired at that point then several kittens would have had to die. i've been swinging back and forth between ms. molly domestic and molest Him immediately and often.

i wanna touch Him now really. it would be very nice to crawl into bed with Him and lather up my bottle. i'm not sure how long He would let me stay there before He pushed me into the bed face down and plundered the kitten population. of course there would be a knife or seven involved and a lot of rope and slightly painful contortions but it would be so worth the multiple levels of pain and soreness to have Him with me right now. maybe i'll get a massage after all this is over but i think that might make it worse lol. i want to be with my Daddy dang it. i'll bother y'all later.

red

ps i forgot to say something lol go figure. when i picked up my rental they upgraded me to a cute little suv WITH a cd player. i so hate renting cars when there is no damn cd player in it as i rarely listen to the radio. i'll take a picture of it and post it eventually lol.

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give me a minute

Sunday, October 29, 2006 2 comments
i'm not even sure what i want to say right now. i'm feeling just fine truth be told. i'm a little friskier than normal but other than that nothing major is floating through my brain. i just finished phase one of edits--one of which i was QUITE happy about making--and i just want to crawl up in bed with Roaming Soldier and let Him play in my hair. well not JUST play with my hair. i have been on smutty email patrol over the last few days so i'm sure when He opens up the inbox and reads them He's gonna want to be home as well. it will be a nice long lovely time in bed when He does get home but until then, it's smut production for Him and dead kitties for me.

i lost an eBay auction earlier but really i didn't need it so that's not really a big deal. just trying to get something else together. i'm slightly shocked that really by friday my life as i know it could be totally different lol. well not totally different. i mean i will go back to work and do the same stuff i do right now. but i guess i do it with slightly more clout. either way i'm a happy kid. another door closing and making way for more doors to open.

yippee

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just checking in

Thursday, October 26, 2006 No comments
i stopped crying. then i got angry. then i sat down and did all i thought i could do right then. i emailed my committee chair and told her that really i have rarely gotten upset about anything connected to this process but i was upset enough to break down on monday night. i do not have time other than when i planned on working on this to do it. i didn't hear from her until middle of the day today and we are back on our altered time schedule. the reply sounded a bit ummm snippy and i was urged to calm down again but really i couldn't decide all of a sudden i wasn't going to do it after we set up a meeting time so why should they be able to? oh they do have the nice shiny degrees already but i'm tired, stressed and have way more than my share on my plate right now. this has not been nearly as pleasant as i expected it would be but it will be over soon. praise him lol.

i don't think this will be much longer. about a month and a half ago Roaming Soldier and i discussed the spankings (of the fun variety) i was accumulating with my stories and what not. it was 200 at the time--i didn't clarify if that was strokes of the paddle OR nightly spankings cause i wasn't trying to add to them--and i had to add six each day lol. i just did the math and as of right now i'm up to 470. that really made me smile for some reason. no protracted session could be tolerated if He was trying to get to 470 but the thought of His hand on my behind making it all nice and warm was smile inducing. i'm actually kinda sleepy--go figure--so i'm going to send Him an email and head to bed. i'll be off and on till i leave and then i'll have to say hi when i can.

see ya
red






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all i know is i love Him

Tuesday, October 24, 2006 No comments
over the last two weeks my faith in the world at large has been tested. work has been hectic. my mother has been nothing short of an intense throbbing pain in my ass. my brother has not leapt to volunteer aiding with relieving that throbbing pain and today my committee is opting to play with my life and my timing because of things they just have to do instead of being at my defense when we originally set the date and time. as best as i can tell in my department nothing like this has ever happened and probably won't happen again so it must be something about me and the universe that has decided to make it come to pass right now. my laptop is MOSTLY fixed and sitting in my living room waiting on a power supply. i've worked my ass off to get ready and it feels like it's all for nothing. i've been crying for the last hour and i don't expect that to stop anytime soon. i really just don't want to go at all anymore. yes this is all that's left but i set it up and took all the time i thought i would need off of my job to get it prepped and back over to the graduate school like it was supposed to be and they are ruining that as i type this. all i can really say is that i'm happy i have the friends i do around and the love of a wonderful man. i think whomever is wishing this not to take place will win now because i give up. i'm going to disappear for a while now.

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adventures in love & Domination

Sunday, October 22, 2006 No comments
it's almost a day after this post originally popped into my brain so forgive me if it doesn't flow as well as it could. it was inspired by Roaming Soldier who wrote me a lovely little email while He was for some reason or other in the medical tent. brief momentary pause for a molly blane moment. yes i should be freaking out more than i am and yes i am more than just a little bit worried about what He is doing in the damn medical tent but i think i mentioned before, my brain operates under the "no news is good news" mentality right now. He could have just been dehydrated--it is awfully hot there after all or He could be on His way home. either way, He's still breathing and for now that's all that matters. molly blane moment over. we're stuck on numbers, Roaming Soldier and i, three in particular 8, 9 and 22--well four i guess because 17 sneaks in there by virtue of it being the product of adding 8 with 9. anyhoo, it was based on one of those numbers and led to what He deemed "one truth" at this moment. that being the fact that we were meant to be together as this relationship was totally not on the radar for either of us in january and here it is some eight months after we met and there doesn't seem like anything else in the world for either of us.

our lives, our love, our future are totally wrapped up in one another and all the worries i had in meeting Him when i did have long since been dispelled. any reservations He had about being open to the possibility of meeting someone new have faded into the sunset long ago as well. last night the depth of my girly sappy were exploited wholly lol. i went looking for books on His religion, wedding cakes and a particular bridal magazine i love that i can't buy locally to save my life. i saw a few cute cates but nothing i needed to take home with me. the books i had to order because of course they weren't locally available either. regardless, my brain is moving along the path of what else can i do now to prepare for our future.

the wedding, as i have found out from a number of friends as they have gotten married, is having less and less to do with us if and when it takes place the way i'm envisioning. a long vacation and a simple beach ceremony would work for me. i think all of the parental units involved would hunt us down and hurt us. plus it might be nice to put a few folks i know in the wedding party so i guess i can suck that up. i guess you have heard all the lovey dovey stuff---now where's the Domination?

well in the midst of that lovely email He veered off into three areas that reminded me why He has excited me so. nice tall intelligent sadistic Doms are so much fun to have around. He's enjoyed the stories immensely but they were enjoyable because He'd plant a seed in my head and i would spin it out to its most interesting conclusion. while a lot of our jokes are playful and cute, it is with the clear understanding that He has achieved a respect and dominion over me that was unanticipated to say the least. we have fit an ideal for the other that honestly, based on what i was reading, experiencing and witnessing didn't seem possible. actually, well before this, a nice vanilla male friend told me that it would be virtually impossible for me to meet a man that could both respect me and my intelligence when He knew how hypersexual i was AND that i liked to be hurt. i would always be able to get one or the other but not both. and while Emperor touched both sides for a while, it wasn't nearly as fulfilling as it could have been.

Roaming Soldier by extreme contrast lol has met all spoken and unspoken wants and wishes i had. He probably would have made that last shopping trip for toys obsolete had He been here but other than that, the feeling that i wanted to achieve with the person i submitted to has been in place for a while now. i have my Daddy, i have the Man that wants to tie me up and spank me and then fuck me into a blissful stupor. pausing for another molly blane moment. a woman wouldn't stay with a man in such a life as the Unit Wives unless she both loved him madly and he was laying it down to use a euphemism. look at jonas, listen to jonas and then look at him again. mr. blane has to be keeping mrs. blane quite happy otherwise she would so not still be there. end of molly moment number two. so yes this seperation sucks right now, my preference would be to not be writing this at all but to be having a mid afternoon spanking session with Daddy followed by a lazy afternoon in bed molesting one another. but since i can't do that right now, i'll kill another slew of kittens thinking about Him and settle down to writing Him another story. gotta keep Jonas smiling too after all so He makes a point of coming home quickly.

ok i'm done now, have a good one
red

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red velvet 5, kittens 0

Tuesday, October 17, 2006 No comments
or minus 5 as the case may be. i rewarded myself with new toys recently. and i must say two thumbs WAY up for the new selection. as a result i worked out a lot of tension and stress last night and the poor kittens paid the price. i woke up feeling like i had a really good night lol but i won't get into that because i want to tell Him about some of this first. if you want to know which toys made me smile lol, email me and i'll let you know. let's take a moment of silence for the kitties. okay moment is over. i'm a little sad because i missed Roaming Soldier before He had to go back to the field. allegedly He won't be gone that long this time but it sucks just that He's gone.

we did have a good conversation a few days ago that was so needed i can't even speak words to it. i'll be much happier when He's home (as if you didn't know that already) and can work through that list of smut to the left with me whenever He feels like it. it's all a girl can dream of lol. ahhh yes spanky spanky.

anyhoo, i mailed out my dissertation yesterday and i should have my laptop back in the next few days. at least i hope so. i need to call and check on that in the morning because if i need to rent this thing for another week i have to go ahead and pay for that now before i get distracted. and then i have to pay my rent before i leave at the beginning of next month so they don't try to get pissy as i'll be gone all past my last viable day to pay. not that they ever cash my check in a timely fashion but still. mommy made dinner and that was nice and then i voted for dancing with the stars lol. jerry springer is sooooooooooooooo cute with his old self. i'm a little giddy for some reason, go figure. i bought food for lunch tomorrow and and will not have to rush over and get something during lunch. i miss Him. ahh well. okay i think i'm done rambling lol.

bye for now
red

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mommy's day out

Sunday, October 15, 2006 3 comments
okay so i should probably just dose off now but truth be told i'm not really sleepy and i'm waiting up on the off chance that i get to talk to Roaming Soldier for longer than ten minutes tonight. i woke up very early this morning which again all things considered shouldn't have happened. after i dropped off something at my office i lounged around until i took mommy to the new mall in town and then over to the wonderful pf chang's for a late lunch. i came home and did nothing after the shoe shopping expedition got aborted. i fell asleep about an hour or two after RS signed off and was back up by 9 this morning, well i guess yesterday at this point which would make the shoe shopping friday lol. she was well behaved and excited to be out. not all that interesting truth be told but she was happy and that's all that mattered.

i got to be lazy for a bit this morning and then i opened my email so that i could email my dissertation chair and then opened up the last round of editing that will be done before i sit for my defense. i spent the rest of the day, literally, editing and double checking and scouring over the document then i readjusted the formatting and saved it. i'll get copies of it printed tomorrow, well today, and then it's out of my hands. just pray on that for me and we'll see what happens. i'm hungry now. i'm gonna go forage in the kitchen now.

see ya
red

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good lawd i'm tired

Friday, October 13, 2006 5 comments
okay so it's been a few days since i updated. there isn't a whole lot going on except i'm exhausted. work is kicking my proverbial ass. i'm tired of seeing folks constantly, not my clients, i just need a change of scenery really. a long vacation with Roaming Soldier, about fifty feet of rope, a small cadre of candles and a gross of condoms would be great. actually that would fan-fucking-tastic but not to be at the moment. especially since the army just announced they'd LIKELY be keeping troops in iraq till 2010--and allowing soldiers MAYBE a year at home before they were redeployed. while i would kill to have Him home for a year, i would be prone to kill when they tried to take Him away from here too. my brain keeps saying we JUST have to make it till 2008 and then we can get rid of the current idiot but even that is a full two years from now. my tolerance and patience are running thin and i promised i wouldn't throw a tantrum but damn if i don't want to. okay i need to move on because i could get stuck there indefinitely.

so mommy is feeling less than stellar as well and really it's because she's struggling to come to terms with the fact that her mother will likely die before we hit 2010. honestly, it would be a blessing if grandma made to the end of the year. anyhoo, she's feeling crappy and my aunts made it worse so i took her out tonight for dinner and then we roamed around Pier 1 and Barnes and Noble for a while. got a few books for me and something for RS. got mommy a book on pugs since she really wants one and she found a cd she liked. then it was back home to relative peace and quiet. it wasn't a bad outing and save her copying my food selections yet again it was a good time out.

i missed RS and not being able to grope Him under the table lol but i always miss Him so i guess that's not a big deal. i was trying to fight sleep but it's winning lol. oh well, let me lay down. nothing is going on around here like i said, i'm OFF tomorrow. YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! night night ladies and gents.

red

ps if you signed up on stardolls thanks but you have to actually join for the referral to work, you can find my doll under reedvelvet

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super long meme lol

Monday, October 09, 2006 No comments
1. Favorite Beatles song: Come Together
2. Favorite Rolling Stones song: Satisfaction
3. Favorite Doors song:Breal on Through
4. Favorite Bob Dylan song:
5. Favorite Led Zeppelin song: Stairway To Heaven
6. TV Theme Song: NBA Playoffs--Remember the Name
7. Favorite Prince Song: Adore
8. Favorite Madonna Song: Secret
9. Favorite Michael Jackson Song: I Just Can't Stop Loving You
10. Favorite Queen Song: Bohemian Rhapsody
11. Favorite Motorhead Song: who?
12. Favorite Ozzy Song: um no!
13. Favorite Public Enemy Song: Fight the Power
14. Favorite Song from a cartoon: I Love to Singa
15. Favorite Bruce Springsteen song: Walking in Memphis
16. Favorite Depeche Mode song: nada
17. Favorite Cure song: nope
18. Favorite song that most of your friends haven’t heard: Question of U/Underneath the Cream--Prince
19. Favorite Smiths song: How Soon is Now
20. Favorite Beastie Boys song: Paul Revere
21. Favorite Clash song: ?
22. Favorite Police song: Murder by Numbers
23. Favorite Eurythmics song: Sweet Dreams
24. Favorite Beach Boys song: nope
25. Favorite Cyndi Lauper song: Girls Just Wanna Have Fun
26. Favorite song from a movie: Girls and Boys--Under the Cherry Moon /I Will Survive--In & Out
27. Favorite Duran Duran song: Hungry Like the Wolf
28. Favorite Peter Tosh song: none
29. Favorite Johnny Cash song: Walk the Line
30. Favorite song from an 80's one hit wonder: Relax--Frankie Goes to Hollywood
31. Favorite song from a video game: something from SSX Tricky
32. Favorite Kinks song: nope
33. Favorite Genesis song: I Can't Dance
34. Favorite Thin Lizzy song: nope
35. Favorite INXS song: Devil Inside
36. Favorite Weird Al song: Jurrasic Park
37. Favorite Peter Gabriel song: Sledgehammer
38. Favorite John Lennon song:Imagine
39. Favorite Pink Floyd song: Nope
40. Favorite cover song: The Wallflowers--One Headlight
41. Favorite White Stripes song: no
42. Favorite dance song: Tupac--All Eyez on Me (hey it's early 90s undergrad lol)
43. Favorite U2 song: Elevation
44. Favorite song from an actor turned musician:
45. Favorite disco song: Love to Love Ya Baby
46. Favorite Power Ballad: Right Now - Van Halen
47. Favorite Guns N' Roses song: November Rain
48. Favorite The Who song: no
49. Favorite Elton John song: Tonight or I'm Still Standing
50. Favorite song, period: Adore
51. Favorite Monte Montgomery song: who?
52. Favorite Green Day song: nope
53. Favorite Alanis Morrissette song: You Oughta Know
54. Favorite Jamiroquai song: Virtual Insanity
55. Favorite Foo Fighters song: Learn to Fly
56. Favorite David Bowie song: Let's Dance
57. Favorite Metallica song: nada
58. Favorite Jeff Buckley song: who
59. Favorite Pearl Jam song: Jeremy
60. Favorite Grateful Dead song: nope
61. Favorite Def Leppard song: Pour Some Sugar on Me
62. Favorite The Band song: no idea
63: Favorite Boomtown Rats song: see above
64. Favorite Jam song: nope again
65. Favorite Barenaked Ladies song: One Week
66. Favorite Creedence Clearwater Revival Song: Born on the Bayou
67. Favorite Garth Brooks song: Friends In Low Places
68: Favorite Tom McRae song: nope
69: Favorite Vienna Teng song: nope
70. Favorite Tom Petty (solo or with the Heartbreakers) song: Free Fallin`
71. Favorite Replacements song: nope
72. Favorite Bob Mould song: nope
73. Favorite Jethro Tull song:
74. Favorite Jann Arden Song: Insensitive
75. Favorite Marc Cohn Song: nope
76. Favorite Our Lady Peace Song: nope
77. Favorite HIM Song: nope
78. Favorite Bryan Adams Song: Have You Ever Loved a Woman
79. Favorite Slashy Song: ?
80. Favorite Old Skool Soul song: Stevie Wonder - Sir Duke
81. Favorite Song That Totally Kicks Righteous Ass: Prince--Mr. Happy
82. Favorite Roxy Music song: nope
83. Favorite Nine Inch Nails song: Closer
84: Favorite Song of Yours That Everyone Else Hates: nothing
85. Favorite Type O Negative Song: ?
86. Favorite KISS song: nope
87: Favorite Godsmack Song: nope
88: Favorite ZZ Top Song: Sharp Dressed Man
89: Favorite Iron Maiden Song: nope
90: Favorite AC/DC Song: nope
91: Favorite Evanescence Song: You Never Call When You're Sober
92: Favorite Pet Shop Boys Song: nope
93: Favorite Dream Theater Song:
94. Favorite Blondie song: The Tide is High
95. Favorite Blur song: nope
96. Favorite New Order song: nope
97. Favorite Bob Marley Song: No Woman No Cry
98. Favorite Violent Femmes Song: nope
99. Favorite Classical piece: makes me sleepy
100. Favorite Dio Song: no
101. Favorite Queensryche Song: no
102. Favorite Linkin Park Song: not so much
103. Favorite Sting song: We'll Be Together
104. Favorite Brand New Heavies song: Never Stop
105. Favorite James Brown song: I'm Black and I'm Proud
106. Favorite Radiohead song - no
107. Favorite Stone Temple Pilots song - no
108. Favorite Neil Young song -
109. Favourite Sass Jordan song - nope
110. Favourite LIVE song - ?
112. Favourite Nickleback song - Hero
113. Favorite Etta James song - Damn Your Eyes
114. Favorite Eric Benet song - Spend My Life
115. Favorite D'Angelo Song - Me and Those Dreaming Eyes of Mine

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Q: WHAT MADE YOU SMILE YESTERDAY?
laughing at friends

Q: WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT 8 THIS MORNING?
driving damn it

Q: WHAT WERE YOU DOING 15 MINUTES ago?
playing with stuff from officeplayground

Q: SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED TO YOU IN 1995?
broke up with my HS ex and developed an unnecessary attachment to this other person

Q: LAST THING YOU SAID ALOUD?
i'm injuring myself

Q: HOW MANY DIFFERENT THINGS DID YOU DRINK TODAY?
still early for me, nothing in my system yet

Q: WHERE IS YOUR BEST FRIEND RIGHT NOW?
i have several and some are sleeping, some are at work, one is probably wondering why i keep sending Him smut when i am so far away

Q: WHAT COLOR IS YOUR TOOTHBRUSH?
blue

Q: WHAT IS OUT YOUR BACK DOOR?
don't have a back door

Q: LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
grown up toys

Q: LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
wow i don't know it's been a while unless you count His love and affection

Q: WHAT COLOR IS YOUR FRONT DOOR?
white

Q: WHERE DO YOU KEEP YOUR CHANGE?
In my pocket

Q: WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE TODAY?
70 ish degrees F

Q: BEST ICE CREAM FLAVOUR?
moo-llenium crunch

Q: SOMETHING YOU'RE EXCITED ABOUT?
defending my dissertation AND not paying for the trip

Q: LAST RAINBOW YOU SAW?
about a month ago

Q: WHAT SIZE SHOE DO YOU WEAR?
8.5

Q: DO YOU HAVE ANY SISTERS?
No

Q: ARE YOU VERY RANDOM?
Mmmmkay. Guess

Q: DO YOU WANT TO CUT YOUR HAIR?
No.

Q: ARE YOU OVER THE AGE OF 22?
as of 8 birthdays ago yep

Q: DO YOU TALK A LOT?
yep i talk for a living

Q: DO YOU WATCH THE OC?
is that even still on tv

Q: DO YOU KNOW ANYONE CALLED STEVE?
nope

Q: DO YOU MAKE UP YOUR OWN WORDS?
Yes all the freaking time

Q: ARE YOU TICKLISH?
Yes.

Q: ARE YOU TYPICALLY A JEALOUS PERSON?
not really

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHOSE NAME STARTS WITH AN "J":
pillar of strength

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHOSE NAME STARTS WITH AN "A":
dr. mac

Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS?
wrong number

Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED SAY?
whatcha doing?

Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
no

Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
no i look like i'm 12 with curly hair

Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU'RE GOING TO?
most likely prince

Q: WHO IS THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOUR LIFE?
i'm not sure

Q: WHAT WORD DO YOU SAY A LOT?
Daddy or "not so much"

Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
lasagne

Q: DO YOU WATCH TV?
Yes but mostly it watches me

Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?
Not unless man hunting counts

Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
as long as He gets home safely

Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW?
working i guess

Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
yep---little girl, the rest if i tell you i'd have to kill you

Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
no but lust is a powerful force

Q: YOUNGEST PERSON IN YOUR FAMILY?
no

Q: IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
unless they are pain killers and i'm cramping, then drugs are gooooooooood

Q: ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
only when it rains

Q: WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
the air conditioner, it's god awful loud

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