the two halves of red velvet

Saturday, January 28, 2006
there are two of me for sure. there is still very vanilla red that has a life to maintain outside of this forum and this wonderful community. then there is His red, His pet, His whatever He decides i am this day. both of these halves are happy individuals lol but sooner or later i am going to mesh them into one happy whole. the surprise went over superbly. He can't wait for the fantasy to become reality and i of course cannot wait to make Him happy. we also spoke last night about my relocation. after the errands i spent the day completing i looked again for jobs near Him. one or two look interesting but the pay range is so wide that i'm unsure about both of them. i will keep looking of course and will let Him know what i find. i don't think i'll get as lucky as taylor and be able to relocate this spring but by next fall i hope to be under His thumb whenever He likes. after this weekend i can be more accessible to Him anyway since i am no longer tied to the city with crisis duty until nearly April. ahh this half of red is rambling, let's get back to the other.

she leads the 8 to 5 life with only random interruptions from the other half when i need to do things for Emperor or when i have to get lost in a dream of Him in order to suffer through yet another meeting. He does create such lovely daydreams, hmmmm. oh anyway, she handles the daily living things and she gets tired a lot. there's a LOT of crap to tend to. the rest of me, His part of me, is always in wait for His next want or desire and figuring out what i can do from here to make that happen for Him. these sides are merging more. but at the moment nothing can out her at work and there is no one to be out with here after work. if He were to put one of those "woo look at me i'm a collar" collars on me then i'd have to just deal with it. maybe cut out those low cut sweaters for a while lol. but as we discussed a long time ago, the most important collar He could give me would be over the internalized thoughts about Him, this and us. He's already pushed in there and made Himself at home. i enjoy that, both sides of me enjoy that lol.

yesterday was a re-evaluation of my ability to do what He pleases and i can still say i found myself lacking. however, i'm better now. He was pleased and my little subbie brain can feed on that and that i know my Emperor well enough to elicit smiles and smirks from Him. we are happy girls looking just to become His happy and content and faithful pet.

ok enough before i start marooning as my friend said since i'm too dark to blush lol.
red


Your Dominant Thinking Style:

Visioning

You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights.
You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details.

An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path.
You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum.

Your Secondary Thinking Style:

Modifying

Super logical and rational, you consider every fact available to you.
You don't make rash decisions and are rarely moved by emotion.

You prefer what's known and proven - to the new and untested.
You tend to ground those around you and add stability.


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