it occurs to me that i have been some what of a whiny bitch lately. i have to recognize that i haven't packed it in because part of me still believes in the idea of what could be for me and RS. reality is a pain in the ass and interferes with daydreams and plans. part of a submissive's life is going to entail some sort of waiting, for commands or for His attention. this situation is different granted but waiting would still be involved. let me just say that i have a new perspective on things at the moment and i'm keeping myself busy with good friends who i would be lost without. this is just another period of self exploration i guess and i'm always up for becoming more of who i was meant to be. i love the man i call Daddy and nothing is gonna change that right now.