This isn't really a rant but it may come across that way so I apologize in advance if it does. Before I get into that though, I will say that my trip to Amsterdam was amazing. The city is so pretty and it felt great to not be on any schedule whatsoever. I ate good food, saw things so beautiful that it made me dread coming home and had a view that was out of this world. I also got to spend some time with The Dutchman who was taller than I expected for some reason lol and an absolute gentleman. Well gentleman if you consider my interests but really just added icing to what had already been one of the best experiences of my life. If you ever get a chance to go please do.
You know this is really my fault but I have not been good at making new friends. I tend to meet people through other people. I can easily adjust to new groups of people but making those connections does not come naturally to me. They didn't when I was a military brat and moving every two years. They come even less so now. Despite my on nature when I have to present or do something similar, I am ridiculously shy and reserved when pushed out to do something on my own. I am slightly dumbfounded that I boarded the plane for Amsterdam since I was going alone but talking to people and doing things as momentarily Dutch red was much easier than doing it as American red. So here I am now needing to venture out and make new friends and I am legitimately at a loss.
I had a situation mulling around in my brain for weeks that I ended up asking a group of kind strangers about because I didn't have one person close enough to me, and not involved in the situation, to talk to about it. I have vanilla friends that I could have stripped it down and talked to about the situation but this is something that I wanted the whole BDSM trappings around. I've had one really close submissive friend for a while, you've heard me talk about her on here before, but her life is in full out mode so she's been a bit tied up lately. That leaves me with lots of acquaintances but no other sounding boards. I know it's easier to find some of those people in person so I did what I normally do and started with a quick search online to see if I could find like minded individuals preferably who were also Black and make my car take me to those people. Well if they exist locally they are hiding well because I couldn't find a thing. The closest thing I could find was in Chicago--several hours away--and they weren't any more active than the long since defunct group closer to my town. I just wanna meet some friends around my age who also have lives to protect so being out and about at a local cafe isn't an option lol. Plus I don't like coffee or the smell of it--headache time.
Where are the people with permanent tans all hanging out if they don't live on the east or west coast? Come out come out wherever you are. Say hi. I just wanna chat. And maybe vent when I'm frustrated and let you vent when you're frustrated. I'm more of the bitee instead of the biter so you're safe. See ya later. And if you have any suggestions let me know.