Clearing out the Year

Sunday, December 31, 2017 No comments
This probably won't be very long.  I've been sick as all creation for the better part of two weeks but medicine is a beautiful thing and for the last two days I've been able to breathe like a normal human and haven't been eating everything in sight (yeah prednisone) or blowing my nose so much I totally cleared out two boxes of Kleenex.  Yeah for being healthy.  Mom is a little under the weather now but I'm sure she'll be fine soon enough.

As I've felt better I've gotten back on my letting shit go kick.  That has meant going through all of the drawers in my dressers and storage crates and boxes to get rid of things I either no longer use or likely won't use in the future.  Turns out outside of some scrap booking things I can donate there wasn't a lot of extra paper to rid myself of to be honest.  Apparently I do that in waves and forget about it.  In terms of clothes though there were random things I have no idea I was holding on to.  Towels, tops, socks, stockings, gloves, underwear, really just any and everything.  I'm on my fourth bag of mostly clothes at the moment.  I'm washing other things and reorganizing what I keep.  I found my other pair of backup glasses in all the hunting in drawers, managed to wash my ohmibod little panty vibe that was caught up in some clothing or something and that seemed to do nothing to it but clean it thoroughly, found some cute things kids have given me in the past and figured out that I'm not allowed to buy anymore lingerie unless I wear what I have or get rid of some of it.  The ohmibod charged right up but I haven't used it yet lol.  If you hear of a random woman dying because her vibrator electrocuted her just laugh and say a prayer for me.

This year was good and bad and I will take it as there was more good than bad overall.  I got to travel a few times.  Work went well.  Weight was all over the place but stabilized and I'm going to bet on me getting that under control next year.  Other than that it's cold as hell out here and I wish that I lived somewhere that was almost always about 65/70 degrees overnight and no more that 95 any given day.  Warm enough to enjoy life most of the time but not so warm that you couldn't take a nice walk in the random time between blazing hot and pitch black dark.  Hope everyone is well or can get well soon.  Enjoy 2018.


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You know what? I'm really tired.

Sunday, December 24, 2017 No comments
I haven't posted in a while and I could list a ton of excuses but the truth is I'm just tired.  It's been a long year and we still got another week to log before we can file in this one under: who thought anything could be worse than 2016?  I've also been sick since around my birthday which sucks but I did have a great birthday.  I'm on good meds and recovery is on the horizon.  I've been binge watching a bunch of dumb tv shows and getting salty every time I bring up the scroll and see Twilight... and get excited that it might be time for a Twilight Zone marathon only to discover it's the Twilight Saga and for fucks sake why.

Work was kinda kick ass and I have loved what happened professionally this year.  Personally well that's different.  As I get older, my tolerance for stupid is shifting.  In the past I've let stuff go when I shouldn't have because it confuses folks later when I say exactly what I've been saying in more explicit detail.  That doesn't usually go over well so yeah tolerance level is shifting.  I'm being more direct about issues when I can be and when I don't feel like it's going to derail the rest of my day.  I'm not an empath but I impacted by stress more than I'd like to be as of late.  So far it hasn't gone badly but I'm preparing for it because hell you just never know what may come up.  Closure isn't always possible, and is sometimes totally overrated, but if you need to seek and I did earlier then it's a good thing to go after.  It turned out much better than I would have anticipated so whoopee. 

Friendships are odder still for me cause as you know if you've been around here lately that my life is kinda splintered.  It may not be if other things weren't the way they were (i.e. I didn't work in a conservative state in a semi conservative profession with a dependent in tow) but yeah that's my life.  I'm waiting for someone to give me the bat signal again that they can be trusted with the whole of my life but I'm gun shy there and hell sick so not making the best decisions as it is lol.  There are a few contenders though so that's good. 

Another birthday down.  Another year of growth and learning which is always fantastic.  But I need to listen to my body and my mind more than I do and recognize when a girl just needs a nap.  It's one of those moments now.

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