You know what? I'm really tired.

Sunday, December 24, 2017
I haven't posted in a while and I could list a ton of excuses but the truth is I'm just tired.  It's been a long year and we still got another week to log before we can file in this one under: who thought anything could be worse than 2016?  I've also been sick since around my birthday which sucks but I did have a great birthday.  I'm on good meds and recovery is on the horizon.  I've been binge watching a bunch of dumb tv shows and getting salty every time I bring up the scroll and see Twilight... and get excited that it might be time for a Twilight Zone marathon only to discover it's the Twilight Saga and for fucks sake why.

Work was kinda kick ass and I have loved what happened professionally this year.  Personally well that's different.  As I get older, my tolerance for stupid is shifting.  In the past I've let stuff go when I shouldn't have because it confuses folks later when I say exactly what I've been saying in more explicit detail.  That doesn't usually go over well so yeah tolerance level is shifting.  I'm being more direct about issues when I can be and when I don't feel like it's going to derail the rest of my day.  I'm not an empath but I impacted by stress more than I'd like to be as of late.  So far it hasn't gone badly but I'm preparing for it because hell you just never know what may come up.  Closure isn't always possible, and is sometimes totally overrated, but if you need to seek and I did earlier then it's a good thing to go after.  It turned out much better than I would have anticipated so whoopee. 

Friendships are odder still for me cause as you know if you've been around here lately that my life is kinda splintered.  It may not be if other things weren't the way they were (i.e. I didn't work in a conservative state in a semi conservative profession with a dependent in tow) but yeah that's my life.  I'm waiting for someone to give me the bat signal again that they can be trusted with the whole of my life but I'm gun shy there and hell sick so not making the best decisions as it is lol.  There are a few contenders though so that's good. 

Another birthday down.  Another year of growth and learning which is always fantastic.  But I need to listen to my body and my mind more than I do and recognize when a girl just needs a nap.  It's one of those moments now.

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