Random Sunday Musings

Sunday, March 04, 2018 No comments
This is going to be all over the place and I can't promise it will make a bit of sense lol.  I booted this up to write something yesterday but nothing came to mind.  Today as I was prepping to do the dishes after lunch I saw a clip for Seeking Sister Wife and said what the hell.  Before I get there though as I came back to my bedroom to continue to watch the train wreck I saw a commercial for Popeye's in which she was clowning other folks and their seafood selection.  Like for real you make chicken and it's delicious chicken but I don't want any of y'all making me fish or shrimp unless your name is Long John's and I haven't been up in that piece in a hot minute.  Stop playing fast food just stop it.

So the rest of these thoughts are just randomly about the show and things that made me concerned because well hell they were concerning.  As someone who has been in a polyamorous relationship I know it takes effort and it's not for everyone.  Hell I'm not always sure it's right for me but that's for another time.  I also know that cameras can highlight flaws that you may not be aware of until you watch them back yourself later with a more objective lens.  That's why you won't see me letting folks follow me around with cameras.  I'm a hot mess lol.

  • One of the chicks who is being considered as a potential sister wife said her primary reasons for wanting to explore the idea of polygamy was because of her childhood.  She'd be on her own since she was 14 and is missing a family as well as she can't have children of her own so the fact that there were already seven kids was ideal.  Danger danger Will Robinson.  You need therapy and then to adopt this is not your mission.  At the end of her episode when she should have arrived she stood them up so maybe her friend talked some sense into her.
  •  The other potential wife featured in the episode I finished watching is super young like at least 10 years younger than the couple. They meet her and she's saying the right things but all I'm seeing is she shady.  Don't ask me why cause I can't tell you but she seems shady.  When they asked her how she thought the initial meeting went she didn't talk about the wife in the couple at all, just the husband and how attractive she was.  I'm telling you shit is about to pop off there.
  • One of the families is imploding cause the wives are bickering and the husband is much too chill to intervene and like all of y'all need to play nice.  First wife is on her anniversary weekend, bad things will ensue.
  • I'm probably going to turn off the channel because it's a clusterfuck of things that are about to pop off.  And it's making me have flashbacks of 50 shades, just about polygamy, which is never good.  But before I do I need to watch him explain being in violation of rules they set.
So poly people don't have a spokesman right?  Most understanding of polygamy comes from the Mormons who have a certain take on it to be sure.  And while there are clearly folks who aren't Mormon engaging in polygamous relationships they aren't very public so how it looks for the rest of the universe may be vastly different.  I couldn't be a sister wife primarily because I have no desire to be a wife.  There are days when I let myself daydream about being swept up into the romance of it all but really I don't think I have the patience for it.  And then there's the whole issue of him being the person who has multiple partners and me just kinda going with it.  Polygamy is meh for me.  Polyandry could be better but I'm not sure that I want to be the focal point of multiple relationships either.  I don't wanna have kids, well I don't want to have them at my age, it's not a motivation for a marriage.  I envisioned myself as a stepmother but that still requires a marriage.  All of this is rambling.  I think I'm ultimately always wondering why the intrusion of cameras are worth the little bit of understanding that could be gained from doing these kinds of shows. 

I totally understand that I'm probably more freakishly concerned about my privacy than other people are some days but I think it's mostly because I don't want to pony up my privacy for education, fame, etc.  Within certain contexts I don't have a choice.  Folks know what I do for work and can judge me accordingly but when it comes to my love life, or lack thereof some days, what I do is ultimately no one's business but my own.  Still watching, not proud of myself, would love some chocolate or an emapanada or both.


It's been a minute

Saturday, February 24, 2018 No comments
My bad folks.  For the few of you still hanging out and looking for content my work life has overrun almost everything else.  It's a good overrun in that several projects are coming to fruition and ideas are being received well.  It's left me little time to process anything and I honestly haven't been feeling connected to BDSM much lately.  It's my ongoing struggle.  Am I actually submissive?  Am I too finicky to really be a good submissive to anyone?  Do I question things too much to be a good partner period?  I don't have answers right now. I do have a back that feels much better post massage so let's go with that for now.  Hope everyone is well.