- i would like someone who is open and willing to train me to their SPECIFIC needs: eliminates confusion for me and makes me happy to please them (ADDENDUM--i've come to realize my happiness to serve is always present, i do believe that my need for training has intensified though and i don't think that will fade soon)
- i would like someone who is quite aware of my newness but still ready to make me the best sub i can be (ADDENDUM--inconsistency makes me uneasy, i don't like it)
- i would like someone that sees the longterm potential in this lifestyle and wants to engage in it
- i would like someone who despite my newness has such a sadistic streak that being aware of my limits only excites in Him a need to shove me beyond them moaning and screaming (hasn't really changed i just LIKE that statement lol)
- i would like to spend days or weeks or forever being spanked, choked, tied up and humbled by my Master
- i would like to be in constant service to my Master
- i would eventually like to be the alpha/collared sub in my Master's domain: i'm always willing to share as long as i'm remotely secure in my position in His life (ADDENDUM--my preference is to be the only one but Master's wants are paramount so whatever He desires is what is most important as long as i can handle them)
now wasn't that basic and simple? here's what for the moment i know i don't want.
- someone that is just toying around in the lifestyle
- someone who will not consistently discipline me
- someone who will not appreciate the gift of submission
- someone not confident in their leadership
- someone who is not interested in a longterm arrangement (longterm of course being negotiable)
- someone who does not share with me what i can do in order to better serve Him (addendum)
hmmm, seems reasonable, but we may have to talk.
ReplyDeletehey you know where i am LOL
ReplyDeleteI'm actually going trough all yo don't want.. inconsistancy... no discipline, my submission isn't appreciated not even wanted... and itis os, but so hard... I am in a long term relationship... and all that was alive and going not so bad a year or so ago... sice we moved back in Montreal... it is not going at all... I feel so disturbed... and have any idea what to do... I talked and still talk... I am heared... but nothing change...;-(
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