all quiet on the bored subbie front

Sunday, September 30, 2007 No comments
nothing is really going on around here. now that i don't have to focus my attention solely on passing an exam i have a lot more free time on my hands. time to miss Him of course and hope that He's okay wherever in that godforsaken desert He's hanging out. i got manhandled out of my system but my remaining letters aren't encouraging any new smut just yet. i have been looking at a potential self publishing venue thanks to green lantern to stop saying i'm going to do this and just start doing it. of course lazy soul that i am i would much rather go the traditional route so that we can work on everything together and go from there. truthfully i'm bored and before that would get me into a mountain of trouble. bored horny subbie girl was not a good combination when there was a bunch of horny men around. however, i'm well aware of the only itch they would be able to scratch despite protestations would be the need to kill kittens and that's not enough. i need the whole kit and kaboodle and i need it from Him.

i've been dreaming a lot lately too. mostly about the two of us in bed asleep, no scenes, no long vacations filled with sexual depravity. just us in bed pressed against each other safe in the knowledge that He was home and safe and that in about 25 minutes children would burst through the door and invade the half naked sanctuary we had established. gonna have to work out the sleeping situation as i really don't like clothes overnight and that would not be attractive to Littlest Soldier. besides i don't want to be waddling down the aisle so we'll probably have to sleep in something to stop those midnight oopsies when searching for a condom is just not fun and damn i'm knocked up moments from happening. ahh well let me go eat my very late breakfast.

i don't know if i took this test before but yippee i'm 100 percent spankable now

Your Score: SPANK SLUT

You are 100% spankable!

You loved to be spanked, good and hard, with any available object. You will take it as hard as anyone is willing to give it. You are probably guilty of provoking your lover into spanking you, by flagrant misbehavior or verbal challenges. Hell, your ass is probably red right now. We wouldn�t be surprised if you are standing at the keyboard, because it hurts to sit down.

Link: The How Spankable Are You Test written by bazz22 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test


silly stuff

Sunday, September 23, 2007 No comments
You Should Rule Jupiter

Huge and hot, Jupiter is a quickly turning planet with short days and intense gravity.

You are perfect to rule Jupiter, because you are both dominant and kind.
You have great strength and confidence, but you never abuse your power.

You are always right. Even if you make mistakes, you compensate for them... before anyone knows it.
Headstrong and ambitious, you always have a goal in mind. You are optimistic and believe thing things will always work out.

Your Preppy Name Is...

Truxton Parke Foxhall the Fifth
But most people know you as Corkie


inner demons=better people/product

Friday, September 21, 2007 No comments
this post may ramble a bit so you've been warned lol. for the last few weeks i've been listening to the amy winehouse cd that i checked out from the library. i love our library you can check out anything damn near and keep it for at least a week if not more with no major issues. that's off tangent though. i really didn't pay much attention to amy beyond rehab which i loved and i think posted the video here at some point. i mean the song was hilarious to me primarily because of what i do for a living but still funny regardless of that. i figured if it sucked i'd drop it back off at the library and call it a day like i do with cds i don't like. instead i came home and took advantage of my 5 for 1 deal with bmg. not that i was even a blip in my mother's brain at the time but amy's cd reminds me of old Motown music which was full of emotion and good backing music that properly conveyed the sentiment it was reaching for. this is off tangent as well but friends of mine as well as music writers remarked this year that the best "black/urban/soul" whatever you want to call them cds this year were created by non-black artists (another invasion of the blue eyed soul singers lol--check out robin thicke) that were really talented and not just the new pop sugary thing. okay back on tangent. amy has put together a nice little collection of music. however, amy has MASSIVE issues. she's had a rehab stint this year for "exhaustion", has been hammered on stage, spits on fans and is overall in need of help. she's not really a sympathetic character but she doesn't really seem to want that. she just wants to be accepted for who she is, so it appears, and for the most part we have. there's no pop backlash primarily because she's always appeared as a boozing, hard living, type of chick. we look at her and go she needs help to conquer her demons but we don't expect her to do it anytime soon and let's face it we can excuse a lot of crap when people are doing something we like or appreciate. which leads me to the point of this post. some of our most gifted actresses, actors, musicians, artists, and the like have had some of the strangest issues and the most flawed personalities . we overlook them until it's nearly too late because the product is always pretty good.

and i believe that when we fight off our demons and get past them we are usually better off for it. but do we have to let people suffer so long to get there? is it a matter of we know someone isn't ready so there is no need to push? or is it a fear that the work produced will somehow suffer when they aren't looking for approval through the eyes of others? i'm not sure really no matter how many times i've tossed it around in my head. i'm not perfect by any means. i have had an assortment of issues that i've mostly dealt with at this point lol but i can't say it's had a profound impact on my life right now. i work a little harder on some things than others and i sometimes do more than i might otherwise for people who remind of where i used to be. but no one is watching me with adoring eyes. well one person will be lol but not millions of folks.

when are the demons too much ladies and gents? when do we force someone to change or leave them to their own devices?


da da da da da da da

Friday, September 14, 2007 No comments
clearly i'm bored lol. nothing is going on here right now. i am watching wwe smackdown for a change--normally we don't have the cw so this is just odd. the channel the cd is on is normally a preview channel. the network doesn't seem to have a perpetual slot just yet but whatever. all i really need is friday night from 7 to 9 and i'm good. i don't watch most of the cw programming lol. and i've actually been happy because it meant i couldn't be drawn into top model viewing parties. i think she's just weird now lol.

i love the library, grabbed a bunch of books to look over before i decide which ones to buy and enjoyed amy winehouse on the way home. she got some issues but the cd is nice. i was kinda hoping kanye and 50 went double nickel so i could get rid of both of them but oh well. mostly i've just been feeling kinda crappy and wondering what was wrong with my car. i dropped it off today and missed lunch as a result but 100 bucks later all i needed was a new battery and it was ready to go when i got off work. i even did something nice for mom before i came home and took some necessary drugs. they did let me drive a nice shiny sante fe which short of having me feeling like i was up entirely too high was nice. i didn't drive it like i would my baby because well it isn't mine but i might test drive it when i finally decide to get rid of my car.

other than not feeling good, i've been just kinda blah. i've been playing on my dolly site ( and entertaining myself with that. i haven't been able to tell Him that i passed yet which kinda sucks. hopefully we can talk this weekend. all right i have a new letter picked out for smut--the letter m--as soon as i get another burst of inspiration--maybe i'll watch mr and mrs smith--i'll get to work on it. okay see ya and Night Owl i hope you feel better.


celebrate good times come on

Monday, September 10, 2007 No comments

after a semi painful wait i found out that i passed my exam this afternoon. i won't get my actual score till next week but who cares at this point i passed. that means i don't have to take it over and i don't have to feel like a complete retard for not having passed the first time i took it. of course the exam itself has little to do with my job and has no actual bearing on my intelligence but it sucks to high heaven while you are waiting for it to come back. unfortunately for me the primary office person is not there this week so that is why we are in a holding pattern on the actual score. but woo woo woo.


i've been a bad bad girl

Sunday, September 09, 2007 No comments

okay so not really and hold on for a second let me see something. everytime i say i've been a bad bad girl i think of the video right above this. my days of breaking a boy just because i can have long since faded. i don't deal with men that i can break or easily manipulate anymore. it's actually boring being able to get exactly what you want constantly. well at least it was for me. it's fun for like a week and then it dawned on me that the boy in question would do anything i said including some things i'd never do for him so i'd look to replace him with someone that would prove to be a bigger challenge. of course this was all about a decade ago at this point but yeah i still think of that song. thanks to one of my friends i also have another song stuck in my head. i think i posted it when it came up around christmas time cause it was hilarious but feel free to laugh again if you like.

other than that i really have been behaving. except for the thirty minutes that i was laughing because a sorority sister announced her pregnancy--i didn't laugh in her face that would have been rude--and she is just not maternally minded so we are all wondering what will happen now. i still don't have my scores back yet but what can you do. hopefully they will come in tomorrow and give me some resolution one way or the other. thanks to everyone that has said you have passed don't worry about it but i'm a little anal and yes i know the various ways that can be misinterpreted lol. nothing i can do about the scores right now i just want em back now. i think i'd like a box now lol. damn military service.

see ya

oh my god, i forgot to share what my friend told me. he knows all about me and the kink that is my life and in having a conversation about football i told him about this recurring fantasy i have about Roaming Soldier and the NFL season lol. all my friend said was you need some Orbit gum cause you are a dirty dirty girl. that made me crack up. so here's an orbit commercial for you.


smut all over the world

Monday, September 03, 2007 1 comment
okay over the world might be reaching. this blog has been pretty smut free over the last few months. my "real" life has been invading and i've talked about what was keeping me occupied which unfortunately for some of my faithful readers has meant a complete dearth of anything remotely kinky. i'll have to be honest. part of me was disappointed in myself because i think i've gotten fairly good at writing the smutty stuff even when it doesn't prove to generate a lot of interest from anyone but the nice tall Man that inspires them. another part of me has said well that is real life, we aren't always overtly sexual creatures searching for our next erotic fix. yeah but anyone that knows me knows that's a reach for me. i am a big ball of horny when i'm not overwhelmed by other things. that's part of why my exes did love me so, i mean there are very few men that wouldn't want a big ball of horny that was all theirs to play with whenever they wanted. even when i have had intentions of belting out something smutty the mood passes and i take a nap or watch something animated or something else. i didn't even enter a smutty writing contest because my brain wasn't willing to write anything new and i didn't think anything old that i had written would qualify. thankfully for me, mom had a tantrum that kept me in my room and not cooking today so i was around to talk to green lantern and then stumble back upon the aforementioned writing contest. the winning entry was good but it didn't capture my attention the way THIS STORY did. give it a gander if you are interested in something else because my proclivities have not quite returned at this point. they are coming back slowly but they aren't back just yet.

of course you can always check out sugasm and well i was about to type blogstormz but it appears to have disappeared into the great beyond. ahh well, that sucks but there are a number of toplists out there that might be of interest to you as well. but take heart i have gotten the smutty vibe back and will likely be updating you soon enough. be blessed and if you were off today i hope it as pleasant for you.

always His girl