deep breaths

I debated posting this because I'm still debating grown up life on so many fronts. I purposely didn't do anything today besides watch tv and chill because I'm tired and I wanted to see a few things.  I was right about one thing and it reminded me of why I don't extend myself to people after a while.  My voice is ignored until someone needs something and fuck that.  I'm ready for a long vacation.  I keep noticing the places that pop up when Windows boots up are calling to me and none of them, well almost none of them are stateside.  I need to start working on my foreign language development again.  I need to make an exit strategy.