Sentence building

Prompt for today: Complete this sentence and then keep writing.  "I need to accept that my life will always be complicated and the kind of kink relationship I want/need may not manifest."  I'm not sure what else to say there because it's the truth.  I either click with men in complicated points in their lives, have complicated shit going on in my own life, or both. The kind of kink relationship I want versus the kind that fits in my life isn't exactly firing on all cylinders either.  I can fit in sometime play partners.  I cannot fit in the loving Dominant that I'd prefer.  Well loving with some massive sadistic tendencies and the desire to make my brain jelly when we get the opportunity.