Sometimes things just line up

Tuesday, March 15, 2022

Prompt: How does external stress affect your submission or service?  The nerd in me is wondering if that should be effect not affect but I don't care enough to go look it up right now.  External stress makes me shut down eventually.  When I shut down I don't ask for help or reach out to my dominant partner.  I just take care of the have to take care of things and then go to bed.  That made Mr. Wolf insane because I didn't even pretend like I as going to put him first.  Mom was sick, I was going up for a new job, my health was all over the place.  In a moment when I needed to be taken care of, he ended up adding stress because I wasn't journaling or checking in with him or making time to see him.  Forgive me, my mother almost died so making time to check in was not a priority.  I'm ranting a bit sorry.  The point is, I'm probably not a good submissive when I'm highly stressed unless we live together.  Then you can get me to relax or beat me until I do.  If we're separate then I'd do what I with Mr. Wolf more than likely and shut you out.

You have the current blog title because even though I'm supposed to be on vacation this week, I had to go to work.  And while I was at work diffusing one situation two more blew up and I was just fucking tired.  I came home to see if they had jacked up my bathroom as much as I thought they did and yep it was worse.  So I called the folks that called me about the warranty and home and yeah they apologized a lot but they can't fix what is happening.  So I had my only meal of the day and then I crashed.  I woke up and ordered delivery because fuck if I'm cooking and after I eat I'm probably going back to bed.  I'm just tired.  That's what stress does to me, make me fucking tired.


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