I have to admit I like the weekly check ins better. I can think about a lot of things at once and if my life goes nuts midweek, like it will this week, then I don’t have to feel bad about posting late or double posting or just saying fuck it.
Prompt for today: Is it possible to live without doubts? Can doubts be a positive thing to have? I do not think it’s possible to live without doubts. Only because I have never experienced something that I thought was a sure bet. The doubts usually help me prepare and that’s a good thing. Even if they stress me out, I would prefer the performance stress than just knowing things are fine or may be fine or could be fine lol. Having doubts about everything is not great but if it motivates you to do or be better then I see this as a good thing.
Prompt for tomorrow: Do you find a sense of security in service or being owned? Security is one word for it. I think for me it’s more about peace. I am peaceful when I am owned. There’s security in peace to be sure but it’s about peace. There’s someone that I can talk to about all of my weirdness and someone that I can relate to about being coupled in this moment. Someone who finds me worthy and appreciates my service or pain tolerance or whatever it is they appreciate.
Prompt for Tuesday: Define the work kinky in your sexuality? I’m not sure how to define this. My basic sex life would look kind of vanilla if you just watched the actions. Penis in vagina or mouth or anus. I can be on top or take a pounding. There’s likely some moaning and giggling. Where I think it delves into kinky is part of that is driven by the roles we are in and the name calling, debasement, degradation and ways in which my partner amps me up before penis comes near me. Then there’s the rope or breath play, the heavy spankings, the edging or forced orgasms and the piss play. My kinky to me reads normal but I think once you get past the giggling it’s kinky to other people.
Prompt for Wednesday: Is it wrong to believe in something or someone without proof? I don’t think so provided your belief isn’t harming anyone. Believing in your partner is pretty standard and we have limited information to say it is a justified belief initially. The longer we are together the more we know we were wrong or right. Believing that JFK is coming back to install your deposed king well yeah that’s harmful to you, your family and the country in general. Or telling folks the earth is flat for some strange reason. Those are problematic but if it’s not something that is damaging then go for it.
Prompt for Thursday: What gives you more energy: spending time time alone or around people? Spending time alone. I don’t dislike people but paying attention to the conversations and personalities and what not can be exhausting.
Prompt for Friday: Compose a bucket list? Travel more, new passport stamps, lose weight, enjoy life, find a new kinky partner.
Prompt for Saturday: Do you feel your life is in balance? Is there something you should be doing more or less to maintain balance? Oh my life is a hot mess but I’m working on it. I need to do better about self care and stress management. I need to say no more and I need to pursue my interests more. I was nailing it a few years ago but I was also trying to be better for DM but yeah that’s not motivation right now.